Fall/Redemption.

Blogging is like screaming into the void but not quite...

"Not quite"- is what happened to me this week. Thanks for keeping me in your prayers.

After i got that email, it just blew my world away. I had been expecting to hear bad news, but this was more than what I had been emotionally preparing myself to accept.

For a long time now, I was pretty settled on finishing my engineering degree and starting a career in my field. At the moment that email came, the shell of security I had been building around myself for the last 4 years evaporated and I was left with nothing.

I haven't prayed earnestly for a long time. Longer than I care to remember, but this selfish prayer to God was different. I poured the rest of my shattered self into it. It's a totally different experience praying like that. There is definitely so much more power in earnest prayer.

I recieved an email the next morning from the prof saying that he would try and work things out for me. As of today nothing else official has arrived, but I believe that prof will be good on his word.

God really does answer prayers- you just have to ask him for it in all earnesty. That's definitely something I've learned this week. God also has a plan for me, and I think is trying to tell me as much, to put more faith in Him, and to stop trying to plan for myself so much.

Nothing like a little divine nudge.

-Hope/Spirit.